March 11, 2014
Taeyeon. The main vocalist of South Korea's national girl group, Girls' Generation, is undoubtedly one of my Woman Crush Wednesday picks. However, for the past year (or even more) I have always been kind of scared for Taeyeon and sad, her, barely ever even smiling regardless of the situation, always saying somewhat morbid things that SONEs usually pass by as just another 'Taeyeon thing' (like Onew Condition... oh gosh, I remember the time I was so deep in the SHINee fandom I could barely get out) and never really bringing up the problem that this girl actually doesn't look so... happy anymore.
This issue came up to me around the I Got a Boy era when Taeyeon outwardly admitted her depression, saying this on KBS 2TV's Yoo Hee Yeol's Sketchbook:
“After my schedule is finish, I return home and feel lonely and empty inside. I don’t know what to do about it,” she remarked.
Despite her apparent depression, she also revealed that unlike most of her other group mates, she hasn’t cried recently, suggesting that she has been keeping many of her feelings to herself until now.
as well as fellow Girls' Generation member, Sunny, on Radio Star saying this about Girls' Generation's Taeyeon's recurring depression:
"I wish Taeyeon would stop [getting wrapped up in her] depression. I'd like it if you would stop listening to sad music and putting yourself in a corner when you already don't feel good. When you're feeling down, come to me. I'll make you [a soju-beef cocktail], and I'll sing happy songs for you and do cute things."
Most people have been brushing the obvious signs of Taeyeon's unhappiness as if it is nothing. Not only did she outwardly admit it up there, but you can also see her sadness through music videos, pictures and recordings of shows, Taeyeon having a blank and nearly dead face when she was lip-syncing her parts on the more recent Mr. Mr music video, on the Mr. Mr M! Countdown performance, unlike her fellow group mates who may have lacked smiles yet had an obvious enthusiasm when they tried to act fierce, Taeyeon still wore that blank face like it was a tampon, and of course, the more memorable, Katy Perry photos taken with Girls' Generation, in both Taeyeon wears a blank, dull face similar to that in almost all of the photos that are taken of her other than her Instagram photos.
Depression is a serious issue and I can really just imagine a shit load of SONEs reading this thinking things like "Taeyeon's not depressed! You're just jealous!!11" because of course, "angels" cannot be sad and instead are always happy without even realizing the severity of this issue. I don't even think this is just a "phase" or maybe Taeyeon is just "sad' temporarily. I have noticed this for an elongated period of time and this girl just seems like her hiding of feelings and never crying is just putting more weight on her shoulders. It looks like now she's just going along just because she has to not because she wants to and I'm almost positive that there's something more than just what Taeyeon brings to the table.
It surely can't be just be thinking this. Does anyone else notice the oddness in Taeyeon's behavior? Place your opinions in the comment section below.
